........PREGNANT............

Sooooo........I'm pregnant!! After hearing Jordan beg for three years, I finally gave in! (OK lets be honest- i gave in to his begging about a year ago and it took us a minute to get pregnant) In hind-site though, I'm glad! I wouldn't have wanted a baby any sooner and the timing is perfect for this one! Our little babe is due on Sept. 4th! I am 12 weeks and we are going in to hear the heartbeat today- WAHOO! Maybe it will make this all a little more real for me! Jordan is beyond excited...he seriously freaked out when I showed him the pregnancy test! I freaked out too...but it was more like UH-OH....no going back this time.....am I ready for this???.....THAT kind of freak out! But now it has all sunk in a little more and I think it's definitely time for us to start a family...wow that seriously sounds so weird to me to say that!! Even now, every time that I tell someone that I'm pregnant, I almost start laughing because it's just sounds funny. Me? Pregnant? I feel like I'm still just a baby, how can I be having one? Jordan get's mad at me every once in a while and asks, "Why aren't you more excited??" I try explaining to him- I AM super excited, it's just really hard to have a grin on my face 24/7 when half of the time it's buried in the toilet puking! (On the bright side, Jord has kept the toilets the cleanest they have been since we moved into the house :) ) The whole "morning sickness" thing- which is actually ALL DAY SICKNESS for me and gets the worst at night, has thrown me for a loop! I normally LOVE food about as much as I love my husband, but these days I am literally having to force-feed myself. Food is my BEST friend AND my WORST enemy right now. When you are running to the toilet about ready to lose everything you have, it is not a normal reaction to be asking for food, because food is the LAST thing you want to put in your mouth when you feel like you are going to puke! BUT....eating and having something in my stomach all the time is the only things that makes the nausea bearable. It is honestly the weirdest thing I have ever experienced, because my normal un-pregnant body NEVER gets sick! On the up-side- I haven't gained a pound! In fact, I have lost a few! BUT I think part of that might be from my lack of going to the gym every day, and losing some muscle tone, along with not eating much. Because even though I haven't GAINED any weight, I feel like I look fatter! My legs have lost a lot of tone and I HATE them right now lol. Also, I am getting a TINY little bump-not really noticeable in clothes yet, but it is coming! I feel like I might be in the "cant tell if she's just fat- or pregnant" stage for a while. DESPITE all of these weird things going on with my body (sorry for all the whining just then) I am stoked for this little baby to come! It will be a lot of fun! I am hoping we can find out the gender in 2 weeks because my brother Zac works in the radiology dept at the hospital and is going to get me in for an early ultrasound at 14 weeks. So we might find out then, but if not we will for sure go in and get another one done at 16 weeks. It's kinda crazy that we are going to know what we are having so soon! I want a BOY, Jord wants a GIRL. I kinda have a feeling it's a girl though...I guess we will see! Well I have gone on long enough now! Sorry to bore you all with pregnancy talk, I know that can get annoying! But it's just hard not to when you are EXCITED!